Gay Worcester Forum

Corona · Joined: 17 Jun 2006 Posts: 11 Location: Malvern

I'll start by saying that I'm not just doing this for an excuse to post a sex-dream... There really is a point to it (and as such I'm going to leave out the more explicit details).

It's just that I had this dream, and when I think about it, I know it sounds stupid, but it's kind of got me worried.

Well, I'll start at the beginning.

It all occured in a basement-like area, concrete pillars, stone floor... you know the kind.
It was me and a younger Jun Sanaka (the chef). We started getting close and soon shirts were off and we were sharing kisses everywhree and soon his mouth went to a spot on my side.
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That's when things started to turn sour. It started out just like a love-bite until it turned into a real bite, drawing blood.
At that point a woman and her young daughter came down the stairs into the basement area and looked at us... It's hard to explain but they were there because we were there, they hadn't just chanced upon this basement.
They looked at us and the mother bent over and whispered something into her daughter's ear.
(Jun was still biting me at this point and I was trying in vain to push him off.)
The little girl then came over and said something to us, "My mummy says we don't need to do anything about your kind because when the end comes you'll be dealt with anyway."
That's when I woke up.

Now I have to admit that I'm not usually the kind that goes in for the 'dreams are hidden messages' gig and, like I say, it sounds stupid to me even talking about it but I still can't shake this 'feeling' that I've got about it.

Who knows, it might just be a crazy dream... but, like I say, there's just something I can't shake about it.
Another thing striking about it was how vivid it was. Anything I normally remember in a dream is fuzzy and uncertain, like watching and listerning through a thick gauze... This one I can remember as if I was there right now.

I spoke to a friend about it and they said that it sounds like there's a part of me that's ashamed about being gay. I'd hate to think that this was the case. It took me so long to accept it so now if it turns out that I haven't fully accepted it it'll be like a return to square 1.

If anyone has any ideas then I'm open to hear your opinions.

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Andy · Joined: 23 Feb 2007 Posts: 1 Location: Stourport

I realise this is a few months late, but I'd take it as meaning you're worried about how other people think of you for being gay, rather than you accepting yourself.

Of course, it could have just been one of those random dreams. Not every dream has a meaning. Either way, I wouldn't let dreams worry you too much. Smile

Corona · Joined: 17 Jun 2006 Posts: 11 Location: Malvern

Don't worry about being late.
You raise an interesting and very valid point. That hadn't actually crossed my mind. I'm very open with my sexuality but I suppose there is the posibility that I'm worried what people will think of me.
It's something I'll spend some thought on, thanks.

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